Thoughtful Thoughts

Salam,

I'm old, at least I think so. My bones are kerepots, ache here and there. My eyesight is getting worst. I think I'm calmer now. Dah tak garang sangat. I think..

I'm starting to like kids. I'm thinking of marriage. Yes, I think I'm old. Baru 25, yet I felt like I should have settled down. Settled with my career, and my life as well. Career? Dulu kala masa muda2 I want to be this and that. Now, nak kawen and dok rumah je. Jaga makan minum husband and kids. Some people disagree on that, but I think I'm simply tired with office politics and harassment. Nevertheless being a boss and a boss's daughter made me felt less miserable on handling both the politics and harassment as well. I chose not to look for other jobs anymore. I chose to take the road not taken. I think I'm settled. I think..

I was born on December. People say I'm 25. On the other hand, baru je masuk 24th last December. That makes me feel older some more. People say I looked older than fiance. Yeke? I felt older again. People thought Mak and I are sisters. Iyeke? Being the eldest makes me feel older, much much older.

I'm not tense. No, I'm not. It's just..I dunno..

Have a great weekend everyone..